At war with the pain:

Pain, oh pain.
You always haunt me.
"When you fire the first shot.
no matter how right you feel,
you never know who is going to die"
I've died many times.
Once I even tried to die.
"Pain happens when you care".
If all it takes it to stop caring,
I'll gladly return to what I was.
"What do you have to change inside to survive?
Who do you have to become?"
A monster. A predator. Top of the food chain.
You have to become unraveled.
"Are you okay? I'm fine. I'm good"
Let's all stop pretending, no one is okay.
There is no moving on. Life is pain.
"I'm trapped in my own personal hell".
Life is hell. Give birth to something that perishes.
I tried having a normal life. It only hurt people.
I'm a monster.
"I know how you feel right now."
No one knows what I'm feeling right now.
I am divient.
"I've been torn apart."
"I need everything to stop"
I've been torn apart so many times there's nothing more to torn.
Nothing will ever stop. A shadow never loses it's victim.
"I'm not okay."
No, I'm not fucking okay.
The light has vanished.
God, forgive me for I have sinned.
"It's like this all a game and I haven't been told what the rules are."
In life there are no rules. If rules existed it wouldn't be in plural.
If a rule existed it would be, every light must return to darkness.
"If i were to dissapear tomorrow, nobody would notice"
It's a lie, people would notice.
But like wildflowers end up dying, the memories of me,
will die as well. So much pain.
It never ends.
You can control this, you can control that.
You can't control shit.
"What is a life? Does to live any longer have a how? Does it any longer have a why?"
I thought so, but to live is not a how or a why.
To live is to die.
"What the fuck is inside my head?"
This is not the end.
What's the point of doing something if nothing happens.
Self-acceptance? I should stop judging and accept?
So everything i've done. All the light i've killed.
It's all good? It's not my fault. It's not my fault?
Whose fault is it then. Don't fuck with me.
"I'm turning down you, you get it? I want nothing to do with you,
everything I've cared about is gone ever since I've met you"
You're a damon desguised as an angel.
You are the devil itself. You take and take.
Until there's nothing else to steal.
"It's all gone"
To lose something you first need to have.
To lose someone you first need to be.
"Do you still love her? Always."
It's something that shall always linger in my head.
"You have to let her go! I can't, i can'..."
Letting her go is to die again.
"I warned you, I'll break your heart"
Already broke.