One day I met a boy
The boy had a strange expression on his face
And on his back there were two wings
One was scorched and engulfed in darkness
The other was bright and overflowed with kindness
He looks me in the eyes and at that moment I saw his life
Neither a demon or an angel
Not a human or an animal
All his life he endured pain
His anger reflected has short term pain
In him I could see myself
But I could also see my fears
The fear of exploding
The sacrifices he made
Just for others to be safe
His life full of guilt
His past full of sins
I started to wonder if there was a place in the world for this person
Like an object that was broken and could not be repaired
Like a malfunction in the system
A glitch that was not corrected
A bug that was not reflected
I looked at him, and has I did, I realised I was looking at a mirror
I start to wonder who am I
A shadow of who I was
And a reflection of who they want me to be
The voices never stop
The hallucinations haunt me even in my dreams
I wanted a way out
I wanted to escape
I wanted to be unable to feel
I wanted to be unbroken
So I stopped seeking in others what I lacked
And I become cold, frozen in time
I know that I'm not living but instead I am killing time
Time is draining my essence, I became something else
The apple that feel of the tree was rotten
That apple was me
In the darkness I seek a place to hide
A place to disappear
Eternal suffering waits for those who've never lived
Please let go of my hand
Please let me rest
Let me lay my head upon your chest
Let me sleep the pain away
Don't come after me when I leave
For I walk a solitary path
The wolf that lost his pack
I wish to seek revenge
Against the world that changes
The empathy people feel
Transformed into pity
The generation of sleep depravation
Raised by people who took things for granted
Who turned their backs not just to others
But to themselves as well
We don't lose when we fall
We lose when we fall and never get up
I wish I could change the world
But a fish cannot climb a tree
Let me fade away
Let go of me