As my tears drop, visions of you come to mind,

I am reminded of your smile, warmth and touch,

You were everything I wanted but never knew I had.

Every day I drink the same coffee, smoke the same cigarettes,

Think the same thoughts and do the same things.

Life is monotonous, predictable and colorless.

You bring joy to a world that knows only pain,

No matter how hurt I might be, you give meaning to my life.

It is hard to trust those who have caused us pain,

It is even harder to love those who ran away.

I am fully aware of my mistakes,

There is nothing more regrettable than not trusting love,

Or trusting things cannot be fixed.

I still love you,

I am afraid I always will,

For you touched a part of me no one ever did,

And your name is engraved in my small heart.

If I cannot love you as a lover, I will love you as a friend,

And if being your friend is something that causes you agony,

I will simply wait for the wounds to heal.

I know that no matter how much times flies,

You will try to find me again,

Because I believe that you love me,

And true love never dies.

I know the fucked up things I did,

But every day I strive to be a better man,

Not because of others, but because of you.

I am still not worthy of your company,

Maybe I never will be,

Who knows really?

All I know is that I never felt this way,

And what I want is clear as day,

It will not be easy,

However, I want your all forever,

Every day until I perish.

I have lost you once,

If that is what you really want,

I will lose you again,

But please, stop thinking about what others wants,

Think about yourself and what you want.

I’ll be here, waiting,

Forever yours, Henrique