The night comes, I look at the sky and I start counting the stars. In a sea of sparkles I notice something peculiar. You are not there. I wonder, when did I lose sight of you?

As time goes by I become something else. I see myself as someone who does not accept defeat. Even thou I can no longer see your back, I still cling to a chance of seeing your shadow over me. Did you have to leave like this? Watching the moon, my mind starts to go to places I do not want to go...

I hate the fact that people don't know how to be alone, they use each other, without any concern about each other's feelings, reasons or dreams. They step on them in order to climb the endless stairs, only to find that what waits for them at the end is eternal solitude. 

I love the fact that we are such good liars. We believe in our own deceits. We see love where interest sleeps. I can't believe in it any longer. The meaning of the word "love" has been changed, not over the years, but since it was designed. 

On this lonely night I find emptyness. Not because of being alone but because of not being with you. You are the sun, you are the buterflies on my stomach, you are the water that I drink. You are in me but I am no longer in you, maybe I never was. The memories of being madly in love, I find you on those memories. 

I wish you knew how much you helped me grow. I wanted to tell you that I become who I am, not because of you, but to adapt to this feeling of being forever falling on an ocean of nothingness. I also wish that I never meet you for I am afraid of not being able to control myself.

So, as I cry this acid tears that burn my eyes and empty my soul, be happy. Don't lose sight of your dreams, your goals and your ambitions. But remember, not all that matters can be seen, and not all that is seen truly matters. 

Before I forget, I also wanted to let you know that you are worst thing that has ever happened in my life, because, once I had a taste of you I couldn't settle with anything less. Like an addict who wants a stronger dose of dopamine, like a kid eating candy. You are a drug that I can't stop taking. I'm starting to feel dead inside. I can't sleep, I can't eat. There is only one thing that kills my starvation, there is only one thing that makes me rest, and, that's you.

Now I dance with my demons. After all of this years, i found out that we are not that different, you, me and my demons. We are alike and that scares me

Chuva miúda no passadiço

Lágrimas escorrem pelos canais que levam aos esgotos

Bebo de uma garrafa cujo seu conteúdo me ajuda a dormir

Pois a minha mente é atribulada e não me deixa dormir

Porque no estado mais profundo do meu inconsciente. tu resides

Nos meus sonhos te encontro, nos meus sonhos te toco

Corro sobre cascos de vidro

Soco as paredes 

Grito em desespero

Pinto sempre o mesmo quadro

Embrulho-me nas redes

Há quem diga que é exagero

Isto que sinto

Dizem que minto

Sinto os pés a tremer

Os dentes a ranger 

Não posso ser eu quem esperas

Sou apenas um solitário Homem

É sufocante, ser o teu fantoche´

Pensamentos obsessivos 

Só vejo preto no branco

Sou limitado pelas minhas crenças

Sou condenado pelas minhas doenças

Não consigo exprimir o quanto te quero

Não consigo entender o porque de te amar

Dois corações desecontrados

Vitimas da distância

Sinto nos ombros um peso colossal 

Mesmo quando já os braços estão caídos

Quando os calcanhares já estão rendidos

Sinto uma força abismal

Por muito que vagueie

Mesmo que conheça inúmeras pessoas

Nenhum delas me preenche como to me preenches´

Compreendo que forcei

Pensei que podássemos contar historias boas

Fecho os olhos e começam os flashes

Eu sei que quando me olhares na alma

Todas essas duvidas sumirão

Todos os teus receios

Todas as tuas angustias

Fui eu que as originei

Mas sei também que para além de tudo isso

Também te dei coisas boas

Porque para mim, és a tal

Como posso eu explicar-te da importância que tens para mim

Se me negas a hipótese de te-o mostrar?

HSMC

I don't know how to explain it
Faith hidden as insight
I lost you when I let you go
Now I cry, now I hurt
I can't make you love me
Neither can I make you meet me
I know that if you'd meet me all would change
When our eyes met our hearts would embrace

I don't wanna talk about it
But it pains me inside
To feel you walking away
The view of your back is a solitary one
Oh, my heart is breaking
Oh, my body is feiting

You tell me that we'll meet
But don't you see that, that day will never be
I'm trying to express it
I'm trying to tell you
I don't have a year to live
To live on something that will never be
Is indeed a cruel faith
All I want is for our souls to greet each other

Please put all your fears aside
Please let go of all your hurt
Because all I want and ever wanted is for us to be
To be all we never were, all we were meant to be